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Gyan , Fears , Dreams and life :)

19 Mar

You get Gyan from all sources , everyone (no matter how imperfect their lives are )has a perfect suggestion / advise for your life. and so One day I get to hear this ” Don’t be too stubborn and lose what you could have had in life “

I took me few minutes to absorb it and it was such a statement that I can interpret in many ways . we were talking about how he is getting married because he has to and in contrast how I was adamant I prefer to be single than with someone I don’t love and share a certain level of connectivity. I have nothing against the way he or any body else choose to direct their life , but in an attempt to justify our own action how fair it is to find fault with other people’s life . And everyone around advocating ” there is nothing like a fairy tale relationship”, in the end life is an adjustment .

Its been couple of weeks and I am still stuck on that line .

very next day, over a G-talk chat Minni popped a question ” whats your Worst fear?”
I smiled and instantly I knew my worst fear is to live a life others want me to live and start believing that this what I wanted from life. To some extend we do tend to get influenced by the ideas and people we come across , and if you hear something too many times it does leave a mark somewhere in the mind and your sub-conscious starts accepting it. I don’t want a tug of war between my mind and heart.

we both discussed at length how we dread being trapped in a marriage / situation where we can’t fulfill our dreams , where we are stuck in a routine.And then I talked to few other friends , they share the same fear of being stuck up with someone they don’t want to spend life with or not able to do what they dream of because they have to leave all dreams aside in the process of settling down.

Then DG asked me a question , for which I don’t have a clear answer ” what you really want in your life”.
I can write pages of things in general but what is the direction of my life is not something I am sure of .
I think we have been thinking too much about what we don’t want and not concentrating on what we want from life. Its time to know what I really want and then plan how I am going to get it .

How many of us really know what we want from life ???


Random Valentine Thoughts

15 Feb

 wishing a  Happy Valentine  day to everyone !!

This day is special , for it celebrates love ..and though I am always vocal about my feelings,this day I do take time out and call / sms/ mail / ping all the people whom I love and who are a part of my life in a beautiful way. This is the day to celebrate all the love that I have received and fail to acknowledge all year through , for we never know how to thank mom for being there all the time or to appreciate our best friend whom we can call even at 4 am .

I feel blessed when I count  the number of  people with whom I exchanged Valentine greetings today …God has been kind.

I dressed up for the day , got flowers , chocolates , wishes and partied with friends . Then why by the end of the day when I saw the red balloons and  hearts and couples walking hand in hand , I felt a little something in my stomach. Is Valentine incomplete till You celebrate it with the ONE you love? And why we value a BF/ gf / partner more than everyone else in life on such a day . Even when this person was not part of my life last year and may not be part of my life next year , why all I could think of this valentine is him.

How do we actually define this love that makes one person the centre of our existence.

P and S finally broke up after 8 years of abusive relationship.Apparently he moved on and she is not getting the message. she packed him 7 gifts (thoughtful) for each day of the Valentine week and sent it to him. He did not even open the parcel for two days, did not even said a courtesy thanks . she cried for two days and today when i called her to wish on Valentines ,she was happy after talking to him for few minutes . I somehow could understand and spared her my usual lecture today.

I always believed in celebrating V day with all the small things , balloons , cards , chocos , red roses , new dress and a cozy dinner .. today I wanted more than that , I wanted to be with that person with whom all these things had some meaning . I am restless at the end of the day

I Love u R for that lovely walk today evening , S for the message in the mid night , mom and dad for being perfect Valentine couple all these years , and J for being my constant valentine over the last 15 years .

I loved this Valentine postcard .. and with it wish my blog friends ( specially spikey and DG ) a life full of love and Happiness.